Ok, I'm Good Now.

Yes, I'm good now... Since my vow to not give a shit, life is becoming peachy once again. Not caring is such a freeing experience. And after talking to a few co-workers and getting the inside scoop, not going to lie, Gossip!! Love it!! I realize I am not the only one that is fed up and somehow that makes me feel soooo much better. And the fact that I've been super lucky the last few days with my 'numbers' it's looking like my month won't be so bad.

Funny thing. This Sunday is the day I get to meet our owner for the first time, and have dinner with him, the general manager, and all my co-workers, that includes my manager..... Not sure if I will relax and have a good time or if a few choice comments will slip out... we will see how I'm feeling... should I keep calm and carry on... OR should I raise some touchy issues that need to be touched on.....
Honestly, right now, I would choose Plan B...... but I might change my mind by then... it's kind of exciting :)

What do you think I should do??

work, really?

I'm having issues with my job. Or maybe just my boss.... and a co-worker... I don't remember having selling issues at any of my other salons. So I'm not sure if it's me or if it's the job. The pressure to sell sell sell is way too high. Not sure why they care so much. We get 100% profit from doing services. and no where near that % on products. So why the anger??? Why would you want to threaten jobs??? There is not that much money in product selling.
I tried doing this new thing at work, where I would document all my clients/cuts/and product recommendations. And I did worse this month than I have in the last year. Could it be stress?? the pressure?? or just the boss lady saying what a shitty job we are all doing CONSTANTLY! She keeps saying that we should 'prove her wrong'. I am sorry, I do not work that way. If I improve, I damn well hear a GOOD JOB! Otherwise, If I hear, 'not good enough' over and over, GUESS WHAT? I'm not going to try AT ALL. That is the way I work. You tell me I'm shit, than that is all you will get out of me. I'm done trying. I'm done. If you wanna cut my hours, PLEASE DO!!! If you want to fire me, PLEASE TRY! I'm pretty sure all my documents will get me unemployment. Otherwise, just leave me alone. seriously.

And the co-worker part. she just gives me attitude constantly. and she goes against the rules, constantly. and she is loud and annoying. and that is all.

living like we're poor

So with my goal of being a full time stay at home mom still out of reach, I am trying to spend less. Which is very very hard for me. Before we had kids, I worked more, and it was mostly disposable income. Now that my little one is here, and I work less, my shopping habits have to go. So hard!!! It's not like I live at the mall, quite the opposite, I hardly ever buy anything from the mall besides a fruit smoothie. Goodwill, Thrift shops, and garage sales are my favorite. And now I have friends who make things at home that I occasionally buy. Either way, the money is just not there. Not sure if its the Organic Vegan diet that is more expensive than the cheap shit most people eat. Or is it the insane amount of doctor bills from the two times we have gone to the doctor this year??? Either way, it has sucked our money supply dry. Not sure where this will end up. Just another new thing to learn in life.